Worst night in a while. According to UP 4 hours of in and out sleep and now I have to rush out the door for a course, which I am going to be late for but wanted to post this quickly.
A simple tool I use for my toddler that needs to be shared with adults, Gerard, not to name any names. Oddly enough it is also used by google exec’s (see p. 116 in Search Inside Yourself). A useful practice to deal with triggers, like when you get baby poo all over you and declare:
“Great, this is how my day is going to be!”
Yes it will! WHY?? Because word create worlds – so choose them wisely today. And when you are triggered because you will be, STOP, Breathe, Notice, Reflect, then and only then RESPOND!
Okay – so it happened. I said I was going to do something and I didn’t. UGH! This is my pattern that I need to break, desperately.
“Argue for your limitations, and sure enough they are yours!” – Richard Bach
Well, there you have it. Our words create worlds and the words I told myself after I posted my first blog were; “you don’t have time for this, there is no way you can do this”. What happened? I did not post. Instead last night I watched Vampire Diaries (2 episodes) and watched my boys sleep. Yep, both of them were in my bed. My husband you ask, where was he? Oh that is simple – in the bunk bed downstairs. I know, I will address this in another blog. This blog is about recommitting to the projects I want to accomplish.
My friends called me all excited with this BIG idea and want to start right NOW to move it forward. The only thing in the way of great things happening in my life is ME! Sound familiar?
I attended a course today that is looking at emotional intelligence for effective leadership and one of the questions that was posed was; Who do you want be when you grow up? Notice the language – who do you want to BE? Not what do you want to DO? Well I want to BE someone that makes a difference, everyday, always and in the smallest little ways. For me making a difference means sticking to my commitments and for those of you that know me it is a tough one for me to commit to as I am so easily distracted and LOVE the airport.
Here’s to recommitting, to writing, and to moving forward even if I have no idea where I am headed & to have the faith and belief that everything will be exactly as it should.
ps: here are the journaling questions I am working with today & the source;
1. when I feel understood ….
2. when I am at my best ….
3. what I really care about …
I am one month away from my “new-born” turning 1, and it hit me, how long will I be able to still call him a baby? How much longer do I have to still use him as an excuse to not returning emails or answering voicemail? or even for the bulge of skin over my jeans? I am thinking that the time has actually already passed…yet here I am still leading with…“I am so sorry, I just had a baby!”
Well, today is the day that I have decided to create change, I am going to take the next 100 days to begin anew, to disrupt business as usual in my life and to get out of this complacency I have found myself in.
For those of you that know me you might be thinking, complacency? But Pauline hasn’t stopped, and this is true. I haven’t stopped. Since my second son was born on November 13th 2012 I have travelled (with him) to:
- Vancouver, Kona, New York City, Boston, Salt Lake City, Denver, Nairobi, Malindi, Lamu, Amsterdam, Washington, Miami
Sounds like quite the list, and from the outside looking in it can seem a certain way – like I am getting a lot done. The problem is the way I feel is that I have been spinning my wheels hiding in the story of being a new mom to not live my life the way I want to. Problem number 2…I am not quite sure what, “the way I want to”, looks like. With every child I have felt like I needed to reinvent myself and this is exactly what I want to do right now.
This is day 1 of my personal journey to change, join me, watch me or criticize me…either way I hope that my journey can support one other person to make a difference in their life or peel one mom off the bathroom floor. A place I have become all too familiar with. Yes, life can be hard, being a mom can be exhausting and working while being a mom can seem impossible. I believe that you can do it all – the question is what do you choose to do and what changes do you need to make? I don’t know – but I am going to take the next 100 days to find out!
“When Thomas Edison invented the lightbulb, he didn’t start by trying to improve the candle. He decided that he wanted better light and went from there”.
– Wendy Kopp